Friday, September 21, 2007

YOM KIPPUR


If we're going to need anything this Yom Kippur, we're going to need a new sort of religious person. Every sermon is the same these days. Every priest and preacher and rabbi seems to think that the antecdote to their shrinking congregations is to build up Catholicism, build up Jewishness. Now I have even heard of Hindu extremism. All the people of religion fighting each other, different schools of the same religion struggling for their own version to take precedence. How sad when anyone with eyes can see that the new people of God will come from all people. All over the world people of faith are coming together, and we must come together. Enough of this war business. This Yom Kippur I am praying for unity. I am praying for people of true prayer truly concerned with God to come together in the difficult, difficult work of love. I spent the first twenty-odd years of my life looking for the right title, the right name, the right way to describe myself by which picture of God I prayed to. Now, I understand why Jesus said the son of man has no place to lay his head. We have to let these names go for God's sake, and become homeless.

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The dark
is the place where all life
is conceived
and every dream is born
somewhere
east of porn
lies the yearing touch
the spurting fire
we need

and could it be
that i could be the spice you
need
and that we could be
seasoning for each other
that where darkness meets
light
virtue meets sin
and we are held
in
glory?

Tuesday, September 11, 2007


Um, um, i want to be with you
oh, i
can't wait to be with you
ah, God, just to taste you
fly to me lover
fly to me!

come to me sexy, come
come come
come candy cane
licorice wand
see me all mouth a'water lovely
come, quick
come

Monday, September 10, 2007

Surrounded by this great cloud of witnesses... by all of these people who have inspired me, by Edith Beale, by Frida Kahlo, by Ghandhi, by June Caldwell.... I have suddenly a great desire not to be them, but to answer the call they answered, and be myself.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007


What is the shofar saying today?
Maybe, perhaps, it is asking me what I a hungry for, what I really, really want. It seems we spend the majority of our time with half cravings and ghosts of what we desire, always out of energy, always semi-chasing what other people have told us we should desire. Going from silly thing to silly thing. And so we don't have anything. Do I want love? Do I want peace? I should. I think I do. What do I desire? And what do you?

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

this private funeral
you're having
won't change anything
only to get through the weeping
only to get through the moaning
only to allow the laughing
only to turn on the music

the joy

these are the things that will save you

Monday, September 03, 2007


rude horn
joshua's horn
ram's horn
thing of judgment
i don't need you today
today let me just sleep
a little longer
just let me linger
without question
without solitude
just let me soil myself a little
longer
i am not ready to wake up
or to inquire
to inquire
inquire
about who i am
or who you are
or walk far across the jordan
i don't wish to get my feet wet
no, the truth is i don't want to knock
down any walls
michael horn
Horn Last Day
--go away--

i don't want jericho to fall today

i
want to be awakened
but like all religious
people in the post
religious world
i want to be awakened selectively
and what if, when your ram's horn blows
it shocks me rocks me
what if i awaken on the landmine
what if this time
i wake up blinking
sleep walking
on fire
what if i wake up like the buried
alive

it takes a long time to climb out of
dirt

or if i see all i have is dirt
and burn all this shit on a pyre?

Saturday, September 01, 2007



i am looking
for the poem of
being with you
surely is somewhere
in me
and not in these
musty scraps
these faded books
kept here in the office
or in the jaded looks
the tired looks
the life dead looks
of everyone around us
who was not there
to see the rapture
like Christs on crosses
on our faces
the bases of our hands touching
and then planting
against the mattress
against the head
of the bed
as in amaze
we planted ourselves
like lighting on trees
into each other




prayer ii

oh God
why should we wander from thing
to thing and stress to stress
eyes red with weariness
pulling our hair out
preachers have said these are
the last days
all because they wish it so
we all wish it so
like fearful monsters each
carrying deathwishes
afraid to touch the poison
we trundle on
hoping for the end to come
every slap in the face
discourteous word
bomb pointed
tyrrant anointed
is a little deathly prayer
for endings
what i am praying for now is sanity
what i am praying for now is peace


prayer


and does it seem like everything and
everything spirals
into all things
and not in that good way
but that colliding way
and all we can do is pray
and the folks that click
rosary beads are always
worried,
and have you notices that in
the eastern lands
the beads in their hands
their prayer beads
they call worry beads
but if worry is prayer
surely it is only the tail
sure when i say
that i would pray
what i am saying
is i am waiting
for joy to find me

Friday, August 31, 2007



Though it changes appearance and even direction there is, in the end, one road and that is Love, paved through with kindness, peace and mercy. This is the road that leads us to God, and to each other.




These performers: the pay is not spectacular so how can that be what keeps them doing this? Or is it merely the sex? No, a man can easily have sex with another man in a variety of ways and places. If that’s what he wants. But there is some deep need to engage in this emotionally exhausting and psychologically risky deed of fucking and being fucked publicly, letting someone else see your strive naked with yourself, with another human being. Offer up to the public the most private deed you can do making fantasies real.

Thursday, August 30, 2007






I really want to be a poet
I want to be a drunk ass bitch
I wasn’t to sit around butt fucking naked
Smoking poetry and reading cigarettes
Just like I am now
I really want to always
Always be like I am right now
And change forever
And everything I’m saying makes sense
Then I’m doing it wrong
Cause no one around here makes any sense
And if I’m clinging to things
I’ve been clinging too long
I really want to take all of my clothes off’
And roll around like a ball of dirt
I really want to shock the shit out of you
You never needed that shit anyway
And all I needed….
All I needed….
I am afraid that God gave me everything I needed.
And doesn’t
want me jingly jangling about
with anything I don’t

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

The long look is the one that serves the public best.

We are in this predicament called life together... we have no choice but to come to the help of the fallen.... ALL the fallen.-- June Calwood






To me every writer is a journalist, to write is to tell the truth, to give it the very long and examined look. Fiction provides the longest look. That is the power of the storyteller. Every storyteller is a poet. There is no poet who doesn't have the right to escape the lightning rod, and if we haven't jarred someone then we haven't done our jobs.

Sunday, August 26, 2007



There’s not going to be a soul to thank me for these dreams--I’ve kept
I did not make them up
they fly on in
the din of weeping princesses fills this tenement
the lament of the drunk outside
becoems mine
whisky and wine
while I sit--while I lay on my back
naked--tracing shadows alone’
four in the morn--and light another
cigarette

ah--forget it!
you think the writing life is easy
how’s it easy?
No validation
this permanent vacation from the world
anyone else knows

Andn ow again--I know love--which is to say I get laid
and curl up in the widnow
hands wrapped aroudn ankles--to watch the rain roll
down on Reilly Street
I see one man below
--walking slow--to spite the storm
I learn
I learn the secret--life is lonely
No--only some of the time

When you came over the loneliness melted away
you said--you said putting your hand to my cheek--
give me your lonely--your tired--your poor!
thrust them into the door!
And in the dark I thrust them all night
My God! The door was so tight!
I imagine that a world was made in that explosion
I can’t imagine how you held me, my body tossing
the next morning your hand touching--
that spot--that bone--that place on my hip--
your arm tossed over me
your breast there to feed me.

And I thought and I thought
now there’s nothing else
Now--
I am really naked
and she understands me

And the bus rolls below on Reilly Street.

Saturday, August 25, 2007


tonight i was going through old files, old stories. the amazing thing is that a few months ago i felt like i was at and end of my young writing career, and now i see branches and branches to travel in. this path is a good road to walk, it's a good river to sail. the river in.

Monday, August 20, 2007



1.

Don't leave me
here in this
so called longing
something more
than that
less than lust
a trifle more than
frustration
we would
always be
touching
if i had my way
and i would not be
burning
throbbing
waiting





2.

here
at the edge of the earth
I think I love you
Though I haven’t met you
And I long for you
Even though I touched you
Half a thousand times last night
When I was sleeping
And you came to me
And I woke up
Like a puff of smoke you disappeared.

In Indiana we get the leftovers, but thank God, only the leftovers, of the hurricanes down south. The rains of Saturday plunged us into a cold that saw me getting out of bed Sunday morning in August, trembling, and moving all business to the kitchen, where I opened the stove and sat in front of it, depressed, drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes and waiting for the rain to fall. All I could think was how I was not ready for winter, how horrible the last winter was and how long it took for hope and sunlight to come again. This morning I was talking to a friend and she said exactly the same thing, and this made me feel better, part of the human race again.

Sunday, August 19, 2007



i'd rather not write about losing you
leaves are falling from these trees
who will believe me
if i say i feel the same way
if i say
if i say
i get a little sick
thinking i will never
stick it to you again?

that i will never taste you
again

that i will never

again

be in
you?

Saturday, August 18, 2007



i can't believe you're not butter
you should be butter
then i could spread you over toast
like you deserve
then i could spread you across me
consume you
revel in you

i can't believe
you're not life
surely you must be life
you are nothing but life
to me
and every
time i take you in
you are water
energy

and i talk of taking you in
then
why are you the one consuming
me?

Thursday, August 16, 2007

past ten lightning levins the sky
and i go to the grandmother of everything

pour juice all over her terra cotta head
say

mother tell me

and she whispers to rival the wind in the tree
and the stone in my heart

grace is everywhere
forgiveness is not new
tears make the flowers
grow
have faith in love
know folks are foolish
walk in this spiral
believe in stone circles
he said

like someone who didn't know
but hoped

the meek inherit the earth?
and she turned to him and
said
"the meek don't inherit
shit."
and i know what he hoped
and i know what she meant
and privately
always believed it

sitting here now i know
what she learned
that patience
is meekness
that silence is meekness
and meekness is peace
and meekness inherits
by sitting in a rocking
chair
smoking a cigarette,
drinking your coffee
doing your daily duty
in peace
watching those fools run
around
run themselves
and their plots
through the ground
till all that is left is you
having overcome much
by the art of rocking
the prayer of smoking
in past times put upon much
but now
sitting here
meekly